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7 Jun 2019 12:48![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
domarzioneBecause I still default to tumblr even when I shouldn't, a repost from there:
A long time ago, in a galaxy far, far away – Pegasus, to be precise – I left the Stargate fandom with one major WIP left IP. Qui Habitat was my Moby Dick, or rather the ending was. I had spent 200K words over several stories building a universe in great detail and assuring an evermore certain doom for our heroes… and then I got stuck because I felt that I had painted myself into a corner and couldn’t come up with an ending worthy of what had come before. The actual canon resolution of the Ori arc was cheap and ridiculous and I didn’t want to use that convenient deus ex machina. But I couldn’t come up with anything better and so I was stuck.
I reread the whole thing over the last week-plus and I’m relieved that it all still pretty much stands up and I’m not cringing too badly. I still think Huma is one of the best things I’ve written in fanfic and probably the best Jonas story anyone’s written in the fandom (which is, like, out of what, five stories?). I still think I did right by Rodney in Art Is Long. I still thing the insane amount of time and brainpower I dedicated to working out civil structure and cultural differences and the transformation of Atlantis from scientific outpost to center of its own political empire paid off. I’m proud of the stories and the universe I built and I don’t often say that about my own stuff.
Ten years later, I am far less precious a fanfic author and far more accepting of “good enough” in general and I really wish I’d finished the story.
A long time ago, in a galaxy far, far away – Pegasus, to be precise – I left the Stargate fandom with one major WIP left IP. Qui Habitat was my Moby Dick, or rather the ending was. I had spent 200K words over several stories building a universe in great detail and assuring an evermore certain doom for our heroes… and then I got stuck because I felt that I had painted myself into a corner and couldn’t come up with an ending worthy of what had come before. The actual canon resolution of the Ori arc was cheap and ridiculous and I didn’t want to use that convenient deus ex machina. But I couldn’t come up with anything better and so I was stuck.
I reread the whole thing over the last week-plus and I’m relieved that it all still pretty much stands up and I’m not cringing too badly. I still think Huma is one of the best things I’ve written in fanfic and probably the best Jonas story anyone’s written in the fandom (which is, like, out of what, five stories?). I still think I did right by Rodney in Art Is Long. I still thing the insane amount of time and brainpower I dedicated to working out civil structure and cultural differences and the transformation of Atlantis from scientific outpost to center of its own political empire paid off. I’m proud of the stories and the universe I built and I don’t often say that about my own stuff.
Ten years later, I am far less precious a fanfic author and far more accepting of “good enough” in general and I really wish I’d finished the story.
